Day 2

I have to stay in momentum. When it rains, it pours. Is that even true? I think Day 2 proved me wrong. I was so happy yesterday. I felt like it was my lucky night. If there's any slot machine in the city, I'd hit jackpot! I had a good morning with hot noodles as breakfast, what could've been better than that? coffee? i've had tons of cups o' that. Gavin was the first person in my mind the moment I woke up. I almost yelled his name out. Tears formed behind my eyes (Never Knew I Needed by Ne-Yo: You're the best thing I never knew I needed... ) There a slideshow of all our good memories above my head and as I tried to look up, they're like bubbles. Poof. Gone. (I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat: And now I miss eveything about you. Can't believe that I still want you. After all the things we've been through, I miss everything about you... )My stomach churned the whole day. I didn't have any appetite even for a bite. I had to eat something though so I bought a chocolate chip cookie and a brownie. I didn't finish any of the two.

I wasn't surprised that you were there. I was there. I can't look at you. I can't pretend that I'm okay. All i know was I needed to talk to you just to get a formal closure. In a sudden, you were standing in front of me and I was speechless. (Issues by The Saturdays: Me and my heart we got issues, don't know if I should hate you or miss you. Damn, I wish that I could resist you...) I asked you why you weren't talking to me and I can hear myself cry on the inside as you wrapped your arms around me. I felt like I was on cloud 9 once again like I'm Mercury with wings attached on my feet and that I could fly anytime. (So I Thought by Flyleaf: Ignorance is bliss, cherish it... ) You need some time alone and I respect that but how pathetic will i get every single day. What made you think that you're a waste of time? What made you realize that you need to refresh some time to miss me? The answer to my questions are the questions themselves. I was clueless. Didn't I deserve to know? (Only Hope by Mandy Moore: I gave you my destiny, I've given you all of me. I want your symphony, singing it all that I am...) What happened to those times that we were happy. Times when we had nothing much to worry about? Days when we just let the days pass. Hours that we just spend together. Minutes that we spend just looking at each other. Seconds apart that we start missing each other. What happened? (A Little Space by Ne-Yo: I just need a little space...) You said I didn't do anything wrong, I should keep myself busy, I must go out and look for someone new. (Here Comes Goodbye by Rascal Flatts: Here comes goodbye. Here comes the last time...) Is this you saying goodbye but why are you still keeping me or is it me who's just wanting to be kept? It confuses me. It puzzles me. It bothers me. This topsy-turvy world we share is a one-way ticket from my normal life. I didn't survive Day 2.