Day 3

I need answers. Real ones not just the usual "Yeah, right" compliment. I tried to think of what you were trying to think. (Run by Leona Lewis: The fact that I won't see those eyes makes me even want to cry...) My day was spent thinking, contemplating, searching for answers. I had to live though. I didn't get a chance to see you today. Is it for the better or is it helpful for you to realize that you want me out of your life? It bothers me a lot. I woke up at 10am. Quite unusual for someone like me. It's a day of no work. I went to the mall with my mom and looked for the new clothes and the whatnots. The day went great. But there's a new issue lurking right at the corner. I like somebody. (Crush by Mandy Moore: I got a crush on you. I hope you feel the way that I do...)I thought it was just a mere crush or affection. I don't feel infatuated but I'm starting to daydream about him more often. He's for keeps. I never wanted to be good for someone else but him. I'm a good girl and my instincts tell me that you can bring out the best in me. (Best In Me by Blue: Coz you bring out the best in me like no one else can do, that's why I'm by your side, that's why I love you...[uhh uhh uhh. wait up. i don't love you just yet. juuuuuust yet, a'ight] ) Yes, this is another story. Me, Ellie, starting to like someone but not just to get over Gavin. Going back to the real point I think he's out of my league, seriously! I don't even have the slightest idea if he does like me as well. All I know is I'm getting too fond of him that I daydream about him, about us. (Dreaming Of You by Selena: Coz I'm dreaming of you tonight. Til tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight and there's no where in the world I'd rather be than here in my room dreaming about you and me...)WTF. Will somebody slap me hard in the face. You tell me, did I survive Day 3?